Wednesday, March 22, 2006




Belize...Belize....Belize....
I miss it so much there....Now that it has been five months since we have gotten back it almost seems like a lifetime ago. The pictures, memories, people are still embedded in mine and John's memory and I refuse to stop ever thinking about this magical place.
One of these days we definitely want to pursue living in Belize. Whether it be part time or full time, we are destined to be there. I just wish we could go back more often and that it wasn't so expensive :(
I can still hear the sounds of the jungle and smell the forest air. It was so surreal to be there and then to come back to our life here in New Jersey was sad and depressing.
When I ride the train every morning to go to work in New York City, a pain in my stomach takes place as I stare out the window of the train into the slums of northern NJ as I ride the train into the rat race of a job I have...I just loathe what I do and can not wait to venture to something else for the better half of my life.
I dream of the day that John and I can go back to belize, whether it be for a week, two weeks or a life time...We will be back to what I call our future home.
Missing Belize.....

Friday, March 17, 2006




PAT BENATAR
Was due time before I wrote about my girl. I have been a HUGE and I mean huge fan of Pat's since I was around nine years old. I first heard of her when I got for Christmas a Ktel albumn with different artists on it and Pat Benatar was one of the singers on the albumn. From that point on I would listen to "Heartbreaker"..over and over and over again until my albumn got so worn out.....Then I graduated to her solo albumns.
From there on out I was hooked and a true Benatar fan. Since that time until today I have seen Pat around 56 times live and she still keeps on making great music and performs incredibly good.
I can't really say that I have been influenced thru out my life by Pat Benatar, but she is one of those artists that you admire them for their strength, passion for music and rareity of being so damn good !
Today she is still touring and making records....Her last albumn was called "Go" and was a very heavy rockin albumn for a gal that just hit the age of 60 !
I also posted a recent picture of her and you can see how beautiful she still looks !

Monday, March 13, 2006


Today I experienced one of the strangest, craziest things I have ever done in my entire life. A friend of John and me whom is a police officer of the supernatural and strange phenomena took me on one of his outings of a house that has had experiences with demonic portals and satanic rituals.

Officer Voodoo (Paul), a psychic (Sophie), a Minister (Bill) and myself…I, a skeptic and an extremely beginner/novice Shaman met at a super market parking lot in Belleville NJ before we ventured to this house.

Paul wanted me to go into this unbiased and with a clear and open mind so I was unaware of what I was walking into…..
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A small back story leading up to our adventure is (which I found out a lot of this information during and after the meeting). Four years ago a satanic cult whom were assumed to be associated with the “Temple of Seth” were meeting in this particular house with the son of the owner to use as their place for rituals and bringing forth demons and spirits. Four years ago, these cults were found guilty of grave robbing bodies from cemeteries and some members were thrown in jail but their coven still existed.

One year ago the son that lived in this house committed suicide while on the phone with his girlfriend whom was a member of this occult.

One year later (Today) there are still negative energies and a presence within the house and Officer Voodoo and his group (including me) ventured to this house to start the cleansing process and to also seal any portals and negate any demons that may have been still present.

Ok, yeah I know this sounds odd…even for me! But I am open minded and willing top experience anything and said to myself that I am of a spiritual mind and body and no harm can be attached to me……

After we entered the house we went directly to the basement where all of the events have happened. Right away the psychic was visualizing the coven and the demons that resided in the basement and she was also writing down symbols of text that she was feeling.

Our Minister was doing Christian cleansing and ridding the house of any negative energy. Bill is also a gifted psychic and gets information from beyond.

Myself and Paul were doing Shamanic journeying and contacting our spirit totems for guidance and protection with any clue and/or hint of anything in this house and to also help guide the man who committed suicide to his resting place.

After a couple hours of dowsing, cleansing, journeying and many other techniques we all had various experiences which go unexplained. We all were having severe stomach pains which were similar to nausea and motion sickness. Bill was pushed and was guided to a box buried under many boxes in the basement that revealed many cultic ritualistic materials and grave dirt. Paul and I both experiences many things, I was guided to ask the owner to look for her son’s journal and books which she said were all gone, thrown away or given to the police…..She did find some books which lead to some information that we needed.

Paul and I both were told by our guides to look under ground…..we found under boxes and plywood a section of the basement floor missing….Inside we found buried in dirt some coffin nails and coffin lining.

Shortly after, I was cleansing the box that we found with my bone rattle and a mist spray of sage that was made for me by John to negate evil energies. While I was holding this spray bottle it was ripped from my hands and crashed to the floor with extreme heat and force. At this point I was starting to get an uneasy feeling and wanted to leave but I did not…I carried on. Paul and Sophie heard the crash of the bottle and thought that it was something much heavier and larger than the tiny bottle that I had….The splatter was so big and large and the glass shattered into places all over the basement.

Once we felt like we had things under control with the energies, portals and anything else we were feeling we met with the home owner, described what we found and advised her what to do with the items we found and that all should be ok. Also, she is moving due to the negative energies in the house and can not stay in a house anymore where all this went on.

In ending, I am still skeptical of what I experienced even though I felt the energies and witnessed some strange things today. I think believing is seeing and a person should always keep one foot anchored to their beliefs and one foot in the realm of mysticism.

Thursday, March 09, 2006


RUNNING WITH SCISSORS

I just finished reading this book "Running with Scissors" by Author Augusten Burroughs. this book is insanly good. I read this book so fast and couldn't wait to get back to it to read more. It is rare that a book can do that to me and hold my attention like this one did.

It is an odd book by all means and if you are easily offended by gay sex, man/boy sex, drugs and obscene language then this book is not for you.

But all in all I was able to relate to this book in many ways, not necessarily all the graphic true storytelling of his real life child hood but a lot of the time period of the 70's and 80's.

I highly recommend this book if you want to read something good!

I can't wait to read another one of his books called "dry".

Two thumbs up in my book!

Friday, March 03, 2006

Winter....


It is so cold and depressing outside. I am not a big fan of it being so darn cold all the time and dark and dry.

Yesterday while I was in New York (On my last day of market week) and people were all freaking out so bad because of the little bit of snow that was coming down. Now many of these people had to catch planes so it was understandable that they may be stranded for a day more in the city.

Trudging thru the Manhatten streats and subway system with luggage is not something fun or that I advise anyone to do.......Slush, cold and impatient pushy people are just rude and sad.

But I was able to come home to my honey with a big smile and take out Chinese food. I fell asleep very early after watching CSI and 12 hours later I am awake LOL.

Market week and winter cold always makes me tired and exhausted !